Countess of Death


Alone I walk upon the path of life and death.

Sensations of sadness and emptiness fill my mind.

Distant memories of happiness haunt my mind.

Was it all real or just illusion?

So many souls fill the air around me.

So many lost souls never to find their way to the endless abyss.

Never to know peace, never to know joy.

Pain has shown its self to me many times with the tears that flow down my cheek.

The blood upon my hands in hopes of ending the endless waves of sorrow.

The pain of love terrifies me, the agony of life continues day after day.

Thorns prick my finger wakes me from numbness I have felt for so long…

Will happiness find me?

Can the words of my lover fulfill the void with in my heart?

Will this nightmare ever end?

This disappointment of life and death will never cease.

I see the shards of glass all around me, some of momentary happiness.

Some of times past.

Some of what is to come.

Ever vigilant I must press on and serve the master of the Earth.

And help those who want to be helped.

I know with pain there is pleasure.

For I will master them both.

I will not become a slave to pain!

I will master the pain I will give the pain to those who wish me harm.

A time comes for life love and happiness when all is done I will come for death in the end.

I am the countess of death!

I am Mortisma…

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