Memoirs of the Countess of Death

Thy ignorance will be vanquished I feel the depth of my beliefs being attacked...  But you are nothing nor will you ever be anything.  Your flesh will burn at the touch of my anger for such insolent creatures such as your self must exist.  I will be there to laugh at you dance within the fire that consumes your flesh.  Even I need to torment the pathetic and you know who and what you are.  As I am a daughter of Lilith I will become stronger and stronger my rage builds as you grow weaker.  I feel the comfort of thy wings father Satan! I take solace in knowing I am never alone. Thine demons are with me and grant me wisdom from depths of the abyss in which is my soul.  I am the fed on the life of the weak! I vanquish the feeble minded.  My family grows by the day and take pleasure in the depth of my dark embrace of the abyss that Leviathan calls home.  I cherish every day in knowing I am a child of Satan! And it will be a glorious day with the i...

I have been friends with a certain couple I will leave unnamed.  And well one of these friends was a friend to me first before the other came along.  And they had a rocky relationship.  And my male friend to whom I was friends with first took offense because I had let his girlfriend come back to my site after they had left previously. Being both of them and she approached me on messenger to ask if it would be ok for her to return and I approved and told her she left on her own so she could come back.  But with my male friend his resentment ran deeper.  He wanted me to acknowledge him as my first friend and for his help on my website.  And I had never disputed that and in turn he made the insinuation that I was like a sheep being a follower. And I in my final word to him that no one control me and I do have a mind of my own. In response to his word told him that I have the final word who gets booted off my site.  And my members also have that equal chan...

Tears of Remembrance A sire no longer... Countless conquests no more... Imense strength lost... No inclination of disease... Dementia inside thee, once sane being called father. Overtaken by frailty, Mournful of past sins, desired forgivness... Deaths interlude... All is forgiven, but not forgotten... Remain in my memories, always in my heart... Eternally your daughter, with tears of remembrance...

Is it shame or Respect? Every day I see Christians, Catholics and other faiths wear something that signifies their faith correct? Like Crosses, the Virgin Mary so on and so forth. So let me ask you this? Why is it disrespectful to wear such sigils as the Baphomet, or an inverted cross or a pentagram? I know not everyone is forth coming about there faith. That there are some that hide it from their family, fearing that it will so shocking that they cannot handle it. Or even disowned from there families. But there are some who have family members that do know but ask you to hide it in front of others like it is some sort of embarrassment. So how does that make me feel? Well it makes me feel like a fraud. And I do consider my self a proud Satanist and I feel and this that no matter the circumstances you should be proud of your faith. Don't treat it like a dirty little secret. I know there are even those who hide their practices from their own children...

The Right to choose death I think death should be a choice. Life should not be something forced upon you because it is the natural way of things. Now yes I believe that those who are unhealthy should definitely be given that choice first. But let's say you had a full life and you no longer wish to live and you don't want to grow weak and sick. Don't you think that you have the right to choose then also? When are you considered to old? Or are you a burden to your family? Or perhaps you just think you've had a full life? Well those are some things to consider some of you may think is she thinking of assisted suicide the answer is no. I am quite happy in my life and not ready to leave this existence yet but this topic is something I do have some passion about and I think that the gov...

1. SATANISM IS NOT A "CHRISTIAN INVENTION". 2.SATANISM PREDATES CHRISTIANITY AND ALL OTHER RELIGIONS. 3. SATANISM IS NOT ABOUT SPOOKS, GOBLINS, VAMPIRES, HALLOWEEN MONSTERS OR ANY OTHER RELATED ENTITIES. 4. SATANISM IS NOT ABOUT EVIL. 5. SATANISM IS NOT A REACTION TO CHRISTIANITY. 6. SATANISM IS NOT ABOUT DEATH. 7. TRUE SATANISM IS ABOUT ELEVATING AND EMPOWERING HUMANITY, WHICH WAS OUR TRUE CREATOR (SATAN'S) INTENTION. 8. WE KNOW SATAN/LUCIFER AS A REAL BEING. 9. WE KNOW "JEHOVA" OF THE BIBLE TO BE A FICTITIOUS ENTITY, AND THE PEOPLE BEHIND COERCING THIS LIE, TO BE TRUE DECEIVERS OF HUMANITY AND THE MASTERS OF LIES. THIS IS EVIDENT IN THE MANY CONTRADICTIONS WITHIN THE JUDEO/CHRISTIAN BIBLE, REVEALING THIS TEXT TO BE THE WORK OF HUMAN BEINGS WHO HAD OCCULT KNOWLEDGE AND INFUSED IT WITH POWER TO MAKE IT CREDIBLE, AND TO INCITE FEAR IN ORDER TO CONTROL. 10. WE ARE LAW ABIDING. 11. WE DO NOT ADVOCATE OR PARTICIPATE IN ANY BLOOD OR LIVING SACRIFICE. THIS ACT IS JUD...

You found a doll that was once alone and forgotten Wiping the cobwebs from her eyes. Your heart sings with treasure you've found. Stains of where tears appeared grey and withered. Her eyes filled with memories of great many things, some of happiness some of the joy that was brought to her. You look deeper in the eyes and see so much more. Anger and sadness in so deeply engrained. Her eyes become sunk in and hollow and dress torn. She falls to the ground hair upon her face. Sadness fills the air as you see the lines and cracks tracked expression across her face. The screams of pain and disdain in your mind. You see the silhouettes' of past and present. The bells begin ringing in your mind like so many times before, coming forth from depths your own mind. "Was this a dream or reality?" You eyes have deceived you some many times before. Never really sure of what is real or fantasy. The pain of love seemed so real. To be wanted again. Desiring to be beautiful ev...

Alone I walk upon the path of life and death. Sensations of sadness and emptiness fill my mind. Distant memories of happiness haunt my mind. Was it all real or just illusion? So many souls fill the air around me. So many lost souls never to find their way to the endless abyss. Never to know peace, never to know joy. Pain has shown its self to me many times with the tears that flow down my cheek. The blood upon my hands in hopes of ending the endless waves of sorrow. The pain of love terrifies me, the agony of life continues day after day. Thorns prick my finger wakes me from numbness I have felt for so long… Will happiness find me? Can the words of my lover fulfill the void with in my heart? Will this nightmare ever end? This disappointment of...

I make no apologies for who I am. I make no apologies for who I am. No one is above me and so below because I refuse to take judgments made against me I mean nothing in the eyes of others. If that is to be so be it. I don’t care what people expect of me nor do I care. You wish me to be friends and I have been. You desire my care and I had was it such frivolous things that made me less of a person is it because you grew tired of me? I care not of such petty things. I must remain true to my self and to whom that are really there for me and not those who wish me there out of petty gains. I apparently wear my heart on sleeve for that I was not aware. I am truly devoted to are Satan and my Dark Mother and my beloved. My loyalties are to my brethren and you know who you are. I have few true friends and you know that I...

I for years never felt accepted within my own family. A felt as if I were cast out like a Black Sheep if you will. Looked at as a freak or embarrassment. And for most of my life I accepted this. I grew up had children and even married. But it was still some who gave me strange stares and just ignored my presence. But then I moved and remarried and came out with my beliefs as a Satanist. And some of my family still would accept me on their Myspace profile or Facebook. But there was one relative that just got under my skin acting as if I didn't exist. So I had to know really had to know if it was what I thought it was. And it in fact was true she had a problem with my beliefs. So out of anger and sadness. I was compelled to set her straight. That I don't kill animals or offer up babies to Satan. I in fact love children and have two of my own. And love animals as well and own a cat that I love as one of my own children. I also said I do not push my beliefs on any one. ...