Memoirs of the Countess of Death

Finding the inner creature that is me. I feel as if I have been a sleep for eons with memories of my former life or rather lives I had lived. Trickling though like small drops of water containing bits of experiences I had so long ago. Going through an awaking to my life long past my very essence of who I truly am. I know there is much knowledge I must recall and my hopes are that I gain back all that I am before I go into my next stage of being. Feelings of love,hate,lust flooding back into me. My only complaint is the shell I have been given falling apart from the seams. Wanting to be the strong fierce priestess I was so very long ago. My most reoccurring memories are of the pyramids of Egypt as the sunsets behinds them. Such a beautiful site even today as they stand aged from sands of time. They've not lost a single bit the rays of gold and skies of red and orange making these great pyramids appear obsidian in color. It is no wonder this memory replays in mind over and over...

Now when I hear this song it truly fills my heart with Satanic pride and if you are also a Satanist I'm sure you could understand how this makes me feel. Wings of Satan, orb my heart! It burns with love for you. And it is ready now, to receive thee. Claws of darkness, tear my soul! For I have chosen the night And branded its seal into my flesh. Lead me to the catacombs Where light of neither sun nor moon Disturbs the dark in vaults, Possessed by molten evil manifest. There I shall kiss the goat and piss on god. Sundering the molecules that bind This world together with me. An abortion of the cosmic bride, Shunned like death and cast aside. Cross starless skies now let us ride... A spear of fire staked the skies. The graves sprung open. The chains that sealed the hungry deeps Had now been broken. Open now, abode of Satan's powers! Where the shells of evil burn The very eyes of god, And the womb of the world. It is from this wellspring of blazing de...

My first day back home as I would like see it as was great. To arrive to my find my father building the sacred fire and then soon after went to check into my hotel. As soon I dropped my belongings off. I returned to find more of my brothers and sister in Satan. Some were new faces and of course the faces I have come to love as family. Well I had grabbed some food from within and talked with my sisters and later saw that more of my family had arrived and others pitching their tent up for the weeks celebration for Beltane. I wish I could camp out I love the outdoors and the moon was so beautiful to gaze upon. But it truly is a joy to my soul to be able to sit with my family around a fire with those hearts so filled with dedication for Satan. I look forward to seeing what tomorrow will bring. Today is another day and I woke earlier than expected and I am very ecstatic to see what the day will bring. I wish that some of my other sisters and brothers could have come but life goes...

This are some of the thoughts and feelings of one very disappointed Priestess. I have given so much of my time to those who I thought wanted a place to share their views and knowledge. But apparently I have a few that do care on a site of nearly 900 hundred members. I feel like I shouldn't care either hell I only wasted two and half years of my life for those who don't give a shit. Now I know there are some dedicated Pagans and Satanists on the site. But apparently because of my association to a certain organization I and my family are being seen as a cult and that couldn't furthest from the truth. This isn't the first time I had felt like I should shut my site down. But I know there is a dedicated few who would be saddened by me throwing in the towel so to speak. My duty to Satan comes first and foremost and my love for my children and husband should be my only focus. But I have always felt like I care a bit to much and end up in putting myself second. I...

Portable Altar/Travel Altar For many of you who travel or cannot practice your beliefs freely openly may appreciate having something such as this useful. 1. One appropriate sized wooden box finished or unfinished. I personally would prefer an unfinished on so that you can make some more personal touches to it. The being less to the practitioner. 2. One small to medium sized chalice or goblet. 3. An athame 4. One small cloth black in color with or without design on it no bigger than the standard sized bandanna. 5. One small statuette of your deity. 6. One small incense holder 7. Incense sticks or cones “Dragons Blood” preferably. 8. Candles small in size along with tiny glass holders if possible. Now I will try to include as many links to give you some idea of things that will work well for your portable altar/travel altar. As for my reason for doing this well I have encountered many who cannot have a personal full sized altar as they may not live with those who open minded ...

I find beauty deep within the veil of darkness That is to be my homecoming to my next life I feel this great light with in my soul. The black flame burns brightly within me. Gaze deep in the eyes of obsidian. Shimmering hair of embers Flesh of finely carved marble. Horns of strength raised up high! Gather around our father Satan… Master of the earth! He who has given us free will! Eternally I will be priestess for Satanas! Grant me the knowledge of the Dark Arts!                                                                                         ...

Thy ignorance will be vanquished I feel the depth of my beliefs being attacked...  But you are nothing nor will you ever be anything.  Your flesh will burn at the touch of my anger for such insolent creatures such as your self must exist.  I will be there to laugh at you dance within the fire that consumes your flesh.  Even I need to torment the pathetic and you know who and what you are.  As I am a daughter of Lilith I will become stronger and stronger my rage builds as you grow weaker.  I feel the comfort of thy wings father Satan! I take solace in knowing I am never alone. Thine demons are with me and grant me wisdom from depths of the abyss in which is my soul.  I am the fed on the life of the weak! I vanquish the feeble minded.  My family grows by the day and take pleasure in the depth of my dark embrace of the abyss that Leviathan calls home.  I cherish every day in knowing I am a child of Satan! And it will be a glorious day with the i...