Covet my heart

I don’t know where my life is taking me. But I have loved and l have lost. The shining light in my life are my children my reason for being. But children they are no longer they have grown and moved on. No longer in need of mother As they are fiercely independent for that I am grateful. Twice married but their lies and vices were stronger than the love I had for them. I gave much of my adult life to two men who were undeserving of my love and affection. Slowly I had started to become the shell of what I once was. But with time I found the courage to move on. Still in search of a real man that would Covet my black heart. Slowly as each moment passes my heart beats slower and grows heavier and heavier. In need of loves embrace Loneliness has many foul faces and dark lit places. Yes but there is a small ember that shining forth waiting to be kissed.

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