Memoirs of the Countess of Death

Finding the inner creature that is me. I feel as if I have been a sleep for eons with memories of my former life or rather lives I had lived. Trickling though like small drops of water containing bits of experiences I had so long ago. Going through an awaking to my life long past my very essence of who I truly am. I know there is much knowledge I must recall and my hopes are that I gain back all that I am before I go into my next stage of being. Feelings of love,hate,lust flooding back into me. My only complaint is the shell I have been given falling apart from the seams. Wanting to be the strong fierce priestess I was so very long ago. My most reoccurring memories are of the pyramids of Egypt as the sunsets behinds them. Such a beautiful site even today as they stand aged from sands of time. They've not lost a single bit the rays of gold and skies of red and orange making these great pyramids appear obsidian in color. It is no wonder this memory replays in mind over and over...

Now when I hear this song it truly fills my heart with Satanic pride and if you are also a Satanist I'm sure you could understand how this makes me feel. Wings of Satan, orb my heart! It burns with love for you. And it is ready now, to receive thee. Claws of darkness, tear my soul! For I have chosen the night And branded its seal into my flesh. Lead me to the catacombs Where light of neither sun nor moon Disturbs the dark in vaults, Possessed by molten evil manifest. There I shall kiss the goat and piss on god. Sundering the molecules that bind This world together with me. An abortion of the cosmic bride, Shunned like death and cast aside. Cross starless skies now let us ride... A spear of fire staked the skies. The graves sprung open. The chains that sealed the hungry deeps Had now been broken. Open now, abode of Satan's powers! Where the shells of evil burn The very eyes of god, And the womb of the world. It is from this wellspring of blazing de...

My first day back home as I would like see it as was great. To arrive to my find my father building the sacred fire and then soon after went to check into my hotel. As soon I dropped my belongings off. I returned to find more of my brothers and sister in Satan. Some were new faces and of course the faces I have come to love as family. Well I had grabbed some food from within and talked with my sisters and later saw that more of my family had arrived and others pitching their tent up for the weeks celebration for Beltane. I wish I could camp out I love the outdoors and the moon was so beautiful to gaze upon. But it truly is a joy to my soul to be able to sit with my family around a fire with those hearts so filled with dedication for Satan. I look forward to seeing what tomorrow will bring. Today is another day and I woke earlier than expected and I am very ecstatic to see what the day will bring. I wish that some of my other sisters and brothers could have come but life goes...